I failed twice, and not because of lack of potential, skill, or knowledge, but because of unconsciousness and indifference. Had a second chance, and I just blew it, and even though I had both situations in mind I never thought it would affect me at this level. I'll never forgive myself, and even though I'm still on a privileged scene it was one of my dreams after all. Assurness and indifference, those are the two big enemies of a career, and I fell for them at some point: emptiness its what it brings. Just when I thoutht I was mentally and physically settle I discovered how wrong and vulnerable I was. The human its never conformed with what it does. This is good regarding architecture. A project its never done, your decisions are never the right ones, and there is always space for better: time its the only one who makes the last decisions. These are the facts I never payed attention to, which brought me to where I'm standing right now. I react from what other people think of me, I react when other people doubt about my potential. I'm not gonna say I'll never be standing here ever again, because i will, because I'm human, the difference would be that next time my madness towards myself would be greater, and better results would come out.